No one died

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How is still beyond me.  I was watching 'So you think you can dance." and this was one of the songs they danced to.  Talk about muscle memory.

This song is so tied to Judd's dark days
I honestly don't know how either of us survived...but we did.

At one point my only goal was to get her to the age of 18.  It seems a silly goal now, but it is what I held onto. My life raft in an uncertain time.

No one died and she went on to be a strong and beautiful woman. She married a terrific husband and they have the most amazing child.

I would I could have stepped forward in time when she was sixteen and known her future. It would have made my life much easier, though at the time knowing she had a dark and handsome stranger in her future probably would not have mattered. Not at that point.

She was smart enough to know a good thing when she saw it.

Would her mother had the same sense.
I love you babe.

Life without Bob

Or as I said it,  BAWB!

He was a trial. He started life under my house...the cover was faulty and his mom thought it was a good place to set up shop as it were.  She hadn't anticipated that I was just waiting for payday to fix the cover. We of course didn't know they were there.  I got a call at work one day and the kids told me that there was a bat under the house.  The lady across the street was the only one brave enough to go under the house and when she emerged she brought with her a wee kitty.

It's been years upon years that Bob has been with us.  He's a stubborn being who had his own opinion as to how things should be done and had no problem letting you know when you didn't do it his way. He had gotten old and frail.  Jumping didn't come as easy as it once did but he loved going out in the front yard. While I have cover for him in the front, I was concerned about the heat and he didn't always want to come in when it was time for me to go to work. I was worried that he could no longer jump the fence so Jake and I cut a hole in it.  Bob could have his independence and I didn't have to worry.

Once he discovered the missing board he rejoiced in the freedom to come and go at will. All day Sunday he was out and about.  He'd come home for a bit then be off again.

 After a day and a night of utter freedom it took its toll.  I can't help but feel that I am the cause of his demise. Had I not cut the hole in the fence he might still be with us.  And yet, perhaps it was just his time and for the last day of his life he was utterly happy.

You will be missed Bob.  

Blog Fodder

Soooo  I was mowing the grass and this little fella was making his way across the yard.  He originally was up on top of the grass, that's how I saw him.

My son Adam says my lawn mowing looks like a bad hair cut.  At  least this week I have an excuse. I certainly wasn't going to mow this fella down, nor did I have the patience to wait for him to clear the area.

Yes, I could have picked him up and moved him but  -  EWE!!

I don't have blog brain anymore.

I guess that it is a good thing. It gives me more time to think about other things. It is just kind of weird.

Back when I blogged regularly there seemed no limit to the things that would jump out at me as blog worthy. Or as Julie would say "Blog Fodder".

Maybe in time it will return.
Or it won't.